reflection

First Time On Stage In A Long Time…

Ya, so, on Sunday I did a “show”. And by “show” I mean not really a show, if you know what I mean. I did comedy…in front of a group….of, like….people. It was for a Humanist, Atheist and Agnostic group which worked out well. They are my kind of people and all.

I haven’t really been doing stand-up much. I kind of thought of giving it up. Quite frankly, I’m just not all that good. I like to think I’m not bad, but, I don’t think I’m right about that, to be honest.

I had a bad experience last spring and it kind of turned me off of doing comedy. It still bothers me and kind of haunts me. I don’t have the thickest of skins at all which is bad if one wants to be a comedian, I must say. But I was left feeling like I didn’t want much to do with comedy anymore.

But, then, along comes Sunday and an opportunity and I took it. How did I do? I have no clue. I liked what I did. I felt it was one of the more refined sets that I have done. It came together well, I thought. I seemed to get some laughs but I don’t think I actually blew the audience away as a whole. But, it’s so hard to know. It’s hard to judge. But I did it. I got up there and did it and I felt not bad about it.

It seems that this whole comedy thing won’t go away. I’ve been doing it as an amateur now for a heck of a long time it seems. Like, 6 years. I’ve seen so many others get somewhere with it. They’ve worked hard at it and improved and taken themselves to the next level. I kind of just putter away at it. I go in fits and starts. This last 6 months has been the longest amount of time that I haven’t really done much comedy. Wait. Six months? No, make that 8 or 10 maybe. Okay, so, the last year hasn’t been overly active for me.

There is a comedy competition coming up in my ol’ hometown. I’m considering going for it. Wasn’t sure. But after doing Sunday, I think I might want to do it. Hmmmmm.